Lonesome+Despair+Naught= Long Desperate Neglectance.

Saya merindukan orang yang salah.
*coret
Saya pikir saya merindukan orang yang salah.
*coret
Saya bingung, apakah saya merindukan orang yang salah (atau tidak).
*coret
Saya bingung, apakah saya salah memikirkan objek rindu ini.
*coret, remas, garuk kepala

Saya lebih baik memikirkan abstrak yang bisa saya peluk dalam mimpi (atau layar putih)! Selama sasaran kangen ini seliweran dalam kepala, saya makin merasa seperti kutjing: Gatal, Centil, (Egoistis), (Malu-slash-mau), dan (meminjam istilah sang fuego nymphae,) murah!
Mungkin akan memalukan. Tapi, inilah saya jika kamu bisa "meneropong" tingkah saya di rumah: Sesekali gelisah, sesekali ingin sms (tapi bingung mau sms siapa), sesekali pingin nge-daring-in hape tapi pulsa udah dikasih judul boros.

Saya kangen dia. Dia. Dan dia. (Bagi yang kenal saya, tahu kalo "Dia" ini jamak :D)
Err.. ya, the worse object to be missed:
-(bulky)Boy who love girls.
-(hunky)Boy who got girl.
-(twink)Boy who (is warm and flirty -though arrogant and narcisstic- and) got girl.
-(cute)(Hindi)(and Nihon-jin) Boy who i never talked to.
-(cute*)(Dum-dum) Boy who had talk and flirt but is famous of his (overflowing) horn (from horny) for girls.
-(hunky) Male who is already with someone

PLUS "I don't have the guts to text them a flirty message!"

Oh, yeah, i Am Desperate!
*= at certain distance

[Tambahan] Parahnya, hari ini saya dipegang-pegang, dan saya suka. Ini tanda kesepian parah, kan? - -" [/Tambahan]

I'm with looneys.

As i set my reverie free, i questioned my self: Is it me who is insane -and can't understand their concept of sanity-?
; Or them?
I feel like i'm trapped in an never-stopping carrousel: Spinning 24/7, never knowing what ending is like; never remembering where start is.
There's this one: who never listens.
There's other one: who never stop paying revenge.
More: those who speak+teach+guide; but miss hearing+understanding+acceptance.

...and among: there's this one who never stop losing to dreams; falling to reverie; losing consciousness by the pill of sloth: [Me.]

Now, who's crazier?